Day 5 & 6

Day 5.

Friday, I was very busy...so I did not post. My sister had her birthday party and that's what I spent time on, I also had work. Over all though Friday was good! I had fun at work despite how hectic it got (kids biting each other, another one threw up..etc..) I was so happy to not have that heavy depression feeling in me to even worry about the stresses at work. I was just glad I could feel like ME again! Me + God anyway.
God surely is working in me since I have turned back to Him.

Even though we may believe in God there is more to it then. He wants a personal relationship with us...so we should take time out of our day to talk with Him and also listen for anything He may want us to know. It's not a one way street of asking Him for things and then just having the faith He will answer your prayers in your way. He answers our prayers in His way and in His timing. : ) Also living right is another thing. A Christian simply means a follower of Christ. Sinning it up and not whole heartedly repenting just leads to an empty life of meaningless prayers....God wants our whole heart, not just what we 'feel' like giving Him. Trust me, if anyone has your heart, it should be God. He knows what is best for that heart of yours. :) He will not break it.

He has surely taken my heart into His hands and cleaned it up. I am still a work in progress but I have definitely been feeling much better.
I look unto the hills, where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the maker of Heaven and Earth. ~


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Day 6

Sunday. I have continued my fasting (I won't be specific about what I have fasted from). It has been great, doing this journey thing...although I haven't prayed as much with my sister as I thought we would but I know I have had a good time being closer to God.
Today I made it to church and it was nice. I really enjoyed worship and just felt so happy to be there feeling better than the last Sunday I was there.
I also got good news from a friend of mine who has recently regained his faith in God. It seems he has helped another friend of ours soften her heart to God. Although I know the devil will do what he can to bring down their Faith....I will be praying that I can be a good encouragement and that their heart grows a stronger attraction for God. It really made me so happy inside to know a friend I was concerned about, turn to God. I know God will bless my other friend for sharing... and it's not to us but to God be the glory and credit~ ^ ^ He simply works through us.

I still feel a tiny bit of anxiety here and there but for the most part I am feeling much better. I am still praying about my condition and asking for God to guide me in what I need to do. I hope I don't fall back into my old ways, that's what seems to happen whenever I feel good again. I want to praise God when I am great and when I am down. :)

Right now I need to study for an exam.